I love my life!

Today was one of those days. So many moments happened that made me look back and say “I love my life.” I took a hard yoga class and worked my booty off in a totally different way than usual. I pushed through my soreness from the past two workouts and proved to myself that I could still challenge myself and not be a big baby!

Then I went to “work”

“It’s supposed to be fun, that’s why it’s called a play!”

I am so lucky to love what I do. I love theatre. I love teaching. I love directing. I love choreographing. I love the inspiration that comes from working with children and I love the incredible students I have the honor of teaching every single day. Let me tell you, if you don’t have days that you look at your “work” and feel pure joy, you have the wrong job. Don’t get me wrong–there are bad days, and days I can’t believe I was ever crazy enough to choose a career with so little stability, but it is all worth it 10 fold for days like today when I hold auditions and end up with twice as many talented kiddos as the last time! I really love my students. They make me so hopeful for the future!

Thhheennn I came home to Fajita Wednesday! My favorite. Wednesday nights I almost always teach until 8 (although once I start rehearsals every night will be a late dinner night) and Steve almost always has fajitas sizzling in the skillet by the time I get home. He makes the BEST fajitas. They’re pretty much famous. Today, not only did I come home to delicious Mexican smells making their way through our home, but I came home to a clean and organized office! Steve managed to do about a bazillion tasks (including the dishes!) after work and the gym and STILL managed to cook me dinner! I am a lucky gal.

THEN I got good quality snuggling time with Winston and Clementine! Winston laid next to me, while Clem laid on my lap resting her little head on Winnie. So freaking cute. A picture wouldn’t even do them justice.

I’m off to take the hubby out for some fro yo (he deserves it!) and spend the rest of my night making him feel special!

Somebody call the waaaahhhhmbulence!

My legs are screaming! And I am a big fat baby. Steve has no sympathy–some loving husband he is! :O) He said “You subjected yourself to it.” Ugghhh BOYS!

Yesterday I took bodyworks–my second time back after a way too long hiatus. Usually after bodyworks I am way to sore to do much of anything the next day other than walk uphill on a treadmill pretending I’m actually exercising and giving myself consolation points for going to the gym, but todaayyyyy, I got my lazy bum to spin class courtesy of my fav Dobson and Warner Starbucks barista turned friend turned group aerobics buddy Kara who did not let me off the hook this morning when I whined about being sore! Thanks Kara!

Today’s class was super motivating. The teacher was amazing and kept everything really fast paced so I had hardly any time to think about how angry my legs were! Actually at the time, most of it felt really good and like it was loosening me up after yesterday’s hour of squatting and lunging in bodyworks. I find that I love my workouts the most and am the most motivated when I go to classes regularly. Everyone is different, but having an instructor to push me and being around others brings out my competitive side and I almost always bring my A game.

I left today not only wanting to participate in a 62 mile ride for Diabetes in March, but also with the hint of wanting to train for a triathalon. I’m not making any commitments yet, but I have been wanting to do some sort of race or event for a long time and since my body is not much of a fan of running, it’s always been this idea that’s been put on the back burner or the “Oh that would be nice, but will never happen” category. But I think it’s definitely something I need to do for me. I need to show myself how far I’ve come and what I can accomplish when I put my mind to it.

Tomorrow I have cardio and yoga on the agenda and then spin again on Thursday! I love planning and getting excited for my work outs and I love that I am finally feeling pumped about the gym again!

Thursday in spin the teacher said “I know your legs are getting tired, I feel ya, but when mine are at the point when I want to give up I just think to myself ‘I wanna look good naked!'”

I loved that. When the idea of accomplishment and thoughts of the after work out endorphins just aren’t cutting it (like oh say at gear 20), there’s always that. Who doesn’t want to look better naked?

5, 4, 3, 2, 1!

Ok so I admit when I was like 16 I was hooked on those silly forwards where you would answer all the questions about yourself. Seriously, I filled out like every single one. So when I saw this on a few other blogs this morning, I couldn’t resist a chance to talk about myself. Yes, I am a little self involved and sometimes I am that person that loves to go on and on about themselves–it’s an inherent trait that I try to fight *most* of the time, but really isn’t a blog just that–a big open space to talk about yourself? That must be why I have one. I blame it on the theatre career. Feel free to re-post or leave comments with your answers :O)

5 words that describe you:

1) Silly

2) Sensitive

3) Goal oriented

4) Emotional…maybe this should be #1 haha

5) Child-like

4 favorite foods:

Ummm, can the answer be everything? :O)

1) Nut butters–All of them! Peanut, Sunflower, Almond–I could eat them by the jar!

2) Fro yo–need I say more?

3) Cilantro. It makes everything more delicious!

4) Cookies! Obviously I have a sweet tooth.

3 things I’m most proud of:

1) My senior showcase

2) Following my dreams (in case you didn’t know this theatre biz is HARD!)

3) I feel like I am a good friend. It’s a hard thing to put in writing because then I think of all of those times that I’m a less than perfect friend, but I didn’t say I was perfect–but I am good at friendship and I think the amazing people that have stayed in my life (a special few for 10+ years!) proves that this is one thing I am good at, and I think that is something to be proud of!

2 favorite workouts:

1) Dance!!! Obviously.

2) Spin, but on a day I’d just taken body works, I might say that :O)

1 thing to expect from my blog:

Ummm…RECIPES! Of course :O)

Blueberry Cornmeal Pancakes

During our trip to San Diego, all the boys ordered more delicious food than me 90% of the time. Isn’t that the way it goes when you hang out with boys with super metabolisms? I mean, don’t get me wrong, I LOVE the way I eat. I wouldn’t choose to eat in a way I hated…well at least not at this point in my life, and the way heavy calorie dense food make me feel super icky definitely triumphs the taste factor. Delicious and at least moderately healthy is always the best game plan. And I chowed down on amazing sushi, a mexi potatoey breakfast, Mexican food, a delicious veggie-egg white-goat cheese-potato hash, and whole lot of Pinkberry (or as Nacho calls it, Pigeon Berry–I don’t even know how that got started but now I can’t call it anything else), so I was in no way deprived on this trip, but after tasting Jason’s blueberry cornmeal pancakes, I was a little jealous.

Saturday before Steve and I went grocery shopping, I suggested we decide on a breakfast plan for the next day so we could get everything we needed. He asked for pancakes–duhhh–he almost always chooses pancakes. It must be a result of the dark ages in which none of us even sampled a carb for months at a time–so awful–NEVER DO A CARB DIET!!! Anyway, we are still dealing with our carb cravings haha.

Obviously, I decided we had to recreate these babies

Mine may not be as pretty (if you haven’t noticed, presentation is not my forte!), but I would venture to say I liked them better than the original and they kept me full for hours!

Blueberry Cornmeal Pancakes:

yield 2 servings

*1/2 cup reduced fat buttermilk

*1/4 cup water

*1 egg white

*1/2 tbs honey

*1/2 cup whole wheat pastry flour

*1/4 cup cornmeal

*1/2 tbs sugar substitute (or f you don’t want to go fake, skip it and double the honey)

*1 tbs milled flax seed

*1/2 tbs chia seeds

*1/2 tsp baking powder

*1/4 tsp baking soda

*Pinch salt

*Blueberries–lots of ‘em! As many as you can fit! I just dumped them in to my desired amount, but probably used almost a cup!

Suggested toppings:

*Syrup (I use sugar-free, but a pure maple syrup would probably actually be more healthy)

*Nut butter


*Fried egg



**NOTE**You could also mix some protein powder and/or oats into the batter!

Mix wet ingredients in a small bowl and dry ingredients (excluding blueberries) in a medium bowl. Gently fold wet ingredients into dry until just combined (over mixing=tough pancakes! Don’t be afraid of small lumps!). Gently fold in blueberries. Cook over medium low heat in a greased pan until bubbles start to form on top, flip and cook for an other minute or so until finished.

I just cooked each of us our own huge pancake

And for once, didn’t completely mess it up in the flipping process!

Steve topped his with an over medium egg+a white and sf maple syrup

I topped mine with sunflower butter, sugar free maple syrup, non fat vanilla greek yogurt and a sprinkling of low fat granola on the very top. It was amazing to say the least, but no surprise I was full for so long–it was a lot of food!

It was the perfect start to our Sunday and went much better than my two failed attempts at making goat cheese. Ugghh, I hate it when I try to make something and it doesn’t work out–it makes me GRUMPY! But at least I had a super successful dinner on Friday and this delicious breakfast to keep my spirits up! Oh, and my cute life long boyfriend :O)

Healthy vs. Skinny

I have a confession. The truth is I am not at my goal weight. Still actually a whopping 25 lbs away to be honest. Sometimes I have to fight embarrassment when trying to write a blog about healthy recipes and healthy living in general. It gets so easy for me to invalidate my progress with the fact that I’m not skinny, and I’m not currently losing weight–I’m just kind of sitting in the plateau and allowing that to be okay.

It’s funny every time I whine at the doctor’s office about how I eat healthy and I work out and I count my calories (well back when I did–RELIGIOUSLY), they always say to me “Well, you’re perfectly healthy. Maybe this is just where your body wants to be.” And I look at them in utter shock each time thinking “Did you see the scale when you just weighed me?!?! You must be mistaken.” Every time. I’m not sure what exactly I’m expecting them to say, really.

I feel like there is so much stigma in our society about healthy meaning skinny and vice versa. It’s funny because I know plenty o’ skinny minis that are far from healthy. It also goes back to the fact that health is so much more than 1 dimensional. Mind, body and spirit. Multi-dimensional. Of course non of us are perfect and making perfectly healthy choices in every area 100% of the time–we’re human, but I feel like being healthy means actively striving to make the best choices every day to be the best that we can be in mind, body and spirit.

Which leads me to an other thought I’ve been having. I chose the name “Skinnified” for my blog when I wanted it to be all about the food and the recipes. And honestly, I never thought it would be something I’d want to put much time into, but the more I write, the more I discover that what I actually want it to be about is me–more specifically how my journey can help others discover their own journey. I feel like I have a lot to share and others have a lot to teach me. I want to be a resource for others who want to make a change.

I remember when I first started changing my eating habits, I felt clueless and helpless. I had no idea how to eat healthily or how to work out. It’s sad that I was 23 years old with absolutely no knowledge. I don’t think she even realizes it, but my friend Mandie was one of the most influential people in helping me to achieve my goals and make better choices. She answered all of my questions without ever once making me feel stupid or inferior for not knowing. She was a resource filled with information and I trusted her to be able to ask the simplest of questions like “Why do some people not eat red meat? What’s the difference?”

Anyway, back on the topic of blog names–now that it’s about me and my focus is far from being skinny–should I change the blog name? Any suggestions?

And just for fun and to remind myself that my 70 lbs lost is nothing to feel embarrassed about,